I'm editing my friends list and removing the following people from my list:

becky8240
binke42
crystalfantasie
eyes_that_dream
love2bamommy
luna_lux


Reasons being:
We've never really became friends after months of being "friends".
I've/You've never at least commented once due to no real friendly connection.
You have not posted in months, months, months.
No hard feelings meant. There was just no real love connection. :)

**If anyone else wants to take me off their friend list at this time, please do so. No questions asked. Again, no hard feelings.**

So ... I have a complaint. I'm in this community meet other moms. I've found some really cool and special friends from there. I have friends that I've made from other communities also, but this certain community is just for that, meeting other moms and then making some friends from there.

So yeah, you fill out this little bio about yourself and what not. Sorta fishing for people with commen interests and everything. People reply who'd like to try and be friends, you go through the process of adding to a friend list and everything. Then chit chat here and there, finding out about one another and getting to know them. Sounds like a cool thing right?

So how is it so cool, when someone just up and deletes you from their friend list without saying anything to you? Not even saying "hey guys, i need to make a friends cut, reply, blah blah" you know what i'm talking about. We've all beeen there, right? I mean seriously. It makes me have a bad taste in my mouth. Like you're in 6th grade again and when you go to your normal spot to sit at lunch and your best friend or group of friends laughs at you and scoots away or moves somewhere else. That kinda feeling. Like a total snob.

Whatever. It's just shitty. It makes me glad though, knowing that i'm no longer associated with that person who pulled the wool over my eyes for whatever time it may be.

Anyway, that's my complaint for the night. On a lighter note... I wanted chocolate ice cream with some chocolate syrup sauce. Eric finished it off I guess. So I cut up a banana, cut up an ice cream sandwich, sprinkled on some walnuts and a few chocolate chips and waaalaa! It's sitting in a bowl as I type, melting. I always do this. Make something good, take a few bites and let the rest rot. hehe Night! :D

spicey hot thai soup that eric makes is the perfect way to eat and wake up on a cold day :o) <3 he sent me to bed when he got up around 8:30, so i got to sleep from 6:30-8:30 then 9ish till almost 11. now he's already maken plans for me to go back to bed after ehrens pt leaves at 1. awe he either loves me and wants me out of this sleepy state or is gonna jump my bones once i'm relaxed and in bed. or both :-D ... until later.

i guess ive just got all sorts of things roaming my brain as of late. i don't want to mess anything up, in thinking too much. but for some reason, he's got me at that point. is it that he just gets me? or i get him? is it though even in the silent moments, we know, what's going in with each other and whats being thought of? it's in his eyes when he gives me that devious of grins before he kisses me. it's in his unspoken words, with just that look. my mouth has gotten me into trouble over many issues before. i don't want to say something, or do something that's uncalled for, even if jokingly, to test the waters so to speak. in my rambling full throttled brain, i've already let him make a niche in my heart, i don't want to back off or slow down, yet part of me is putting on the breaks saying Hello? who is he really and what does he want with you? in the shower just now, amongst my replay of our date, and through strong feelings and thoughts, i doubted who he was and what his intentions were. it makes me sad. has everything with Rick tarnished me that much? or am i just being cautious, guarded until im sure? there were so many things i thought i knew about Rick, until my dad proved it wrong on paper through the background checks. i don't want this to happen again. a sick feeling in me, is that had things not gone the way they did, i would still be married to Rick, pretending for Chris's sake, and would have missed out on meeting and falling hopefully in mush with Eric. i need to run so i shall yap more about my scrambles later. <3

Unless your project is mission-critical, it can wait until January. This moment is just a platform for looking backward or ahead in time. Explore now and explain later.

that seems to be the phrase lately. little fingertip touches, soft whispers ... im still in the day dreamen mode. teetering on a piece of wood, waitin to flip off. *sigh* i don't want to wake up. gonna watch the rest of Eight Crazy Nights and give someone a call ...

i haven't taken my vitamins in a month. for some reason, i took them this morning. chris left at 9:30 with his dad, it's Olives birthday party today. as the cancer's back, i decided to let chris go to her party. although i should start being the cold hearted bitch at times and screw up their plans like they all do mine, as if i have no plans, no life, no ... rambling. anyway ... i couldnt sleep but 2 hours last night. i lay awake, quietly watching the dragons sleep, took mikey and jack out of their cage for a while. they're good little boys. i'd like to get them girlfriends in february i think. although, there's an awesome girl jackson at my store i go to now. *pout* good things come in time ... which brings me to wonder two words, of all times when i've prayed and wished "why now" ... why now? why now would i meet someone, with such great qualities, ambition, humor, such a devious smile ... i'll gush here soon if i keep rambling. he's moving to wisconsin, im moving to minnesota. so why now, would i find him, only to move apart, even though it'd be the next state over, it's not like right now. these things i think about. *sigh* ... at first i just wanted to stay home on new years, at least i'd have fun with family. but part of me wants to go to the party and bring him ... just to be around him sooner then next weekend. this is bad, i know. thinking about someone so much. i need to get ready for work. gonna pick up some reptile yummies after work and go get a rental. gotta have that mommy/sunshine snuggle sunday night thing.

i miss my forehead snuggler. :*(

ok ... so ... i offically went on a date tonight. i had the most wonderful time. total gentleman, honestly careing towards me and others, suprizingly ... awesome. i felt like pinching myself a few times, because surely, i hadn't found such a good man. im so tired, i sit here and day dream. it's time for me to crawl into bed. hopefully i'll dream sweet dreams tonight. i already miss him and i shouldn't.

The stars celebrate you as they change position. A delicious secret is too good to share. Savor your privacy. Soon enough the world will come knocking at your door.

I'll Always Be There

In times of trouble,

In times of need,

If you are feeling SAD,

You can count on me.

I will give you a wink,

Until you smile,

give you a hug,

and stand by your side.

I'll be there for you till the end,


I'll always and forever, be your friend!

relatives gathered in the waiting room, where their family member lay gravely ill.

Finally, the doctor came in looking tired and somber.

"I'm afraid I'm the bearer of bad news," he said as he surveyed the worried faces.

"The only hope left for your loved one at this time is a brain transplant.

It's an experimental procedure, very risky but it is the only hope.

Insurance will cover the procedure, but you will have to pay for the brain yourselves."

The family members sat silent as they absorbed the news. After a great length of time, someone asked, "Well, how much does a brain cost?"

The doctor quickly responded, "$5,000 for a male brain, and $200 for a female brain."

The moment turned awkward. Men in the room tried not to smile, avoiding eye contact with the women, but some actually smirked.

A man unable to control his curiosity, blurted out the question everyone wanted to ask,

"Why is the male brain so much more?"

The doctor smiled at the childish innocence and explained to the entire group, "It's just standard pricing procedure. W! e have to mark down the price of the female brains, because they've actually been used."

It feels early for the bills to be coming in, but they're piling up anyway. Self-worth gets expensive when you have to go out and buy it. Consider an early New Year's resolution about reining in certain impulses.

Organized events run more smoothly in the morning. After that, Cancer would be wise to give up all semblance of control. Wade cheerfully through the chaos, enjoying every step of the way.

An intense moment can be either excellent or terrible. Let a happy interpretation pull you through to the best possible ending. Thinkers triumph by putting abstract principles in compassionate terms.

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the fuck is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the tv remote because they refuse to walk to the tv and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the fuck would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their ass!

5. When people say while watching a film "did yo u see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the fucking floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an
improvement, then there must have been something before it.

8. When people say "life is short". What the fuck?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever fucking does!! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?